Monday, July 29, 2013
lost
Hey there. Randomly chanced upon my old blog, decided to write a post.
Well im old now, 27 this year yet still feeling unaccomplished.
What do I want out of this life? Where do I see myself at 30? Are the questions that run through my head every now and then. Im almost always overly obsessed with hobbies that come along my way. But why do I not see such passion and desire, leading me to the sucess of my own life?
Its like freaking 2am in the morning and I have work tommorrow. Totally dreading it.
Is this where I see myself in the next few years to come?
So much thoughts flying around my life now. Even though i very much have what i want and need at the moment, something is amiss. Is wealth really what I seek? I need to really get out of this state of my mind.
Shoutouts to whoever who read this post, do holler :)
Friday, July 16, 2010
I Won't Even Start....
What happened after last summer
when we broke up,in September
I haven't seen you, feels like a long time
Sometimes it still hurts, but I always get by
I still got a piece of you under my skin
Its always there no matter where I've been
So if I ever see you on the street, I'll pretend that I didn't see
And turn my face, no use in small talk anyways
Because if I look into your eyes, then I'll have to say goodbye
And that'll break my heart
So I won't even start
I won't even start
I wish you luck and I wish it true
That's the best, I can do for you
Cuz you'll probably find love in someone new
I have to let go.
Yeah its hard to do
So if I run into you with your arm by his side
Just know it'll cut me like a knife
Because if I look into your eyes
Then I'll have to say goodbye
And that'll break my heart
So I won't even start
I won't even start.......
Friday, July 2, 2010
rant-dom
can't even remember how long has it been since i last blogged.. was blog hopping onto random people's and just suddenly felt the urge to. well... some people love to blog about their day, some people love to blog about their thoughts.. I would wanna be intelligent enough to talk about philosophical issues and current affairs, but guess its really not my cup of tea,
haha.
sometimes i find it hard to understand the thoughts of others. an easy
qn that leads to only a yes/no becomes a eternity struggle for them. Aren't we as humans capable of breaking down the qn to a list of benefits and consequences, and thereafter make a decision?
why do we always have to spare a thought for others?
Have we took some time off, to think about what WE want? instead of thinking how a decision or a want, may lead to another party being unhappy?
after ranting all this nonsense, im guilty for committing the latter. cause i care too much.
but i realized, in life you cant satisfy everyone. someone has to be hurt or sacrificed. However, you do have a choice on who u want to "save" and who to let go.
Saturday, July 18, 2009
gone with the wind
guess i've set things straight for now
so sorry to disappoint, well at least all is clear now..
and ya i know i blew it.
Sunday, June 28, 2009
1)what are ur interest and what interest you in the local arts scene.
these were the most unusual ( yet kinda cute) questions someone has ever posted me, while i only had a few moments to think about it.
2)the cat and string theory (no association with above)
heard of it?
who decides who shall be the cat or the string? is there a point where the cat becomes the string and vice versa?
i guess sometimes i dun mind leading a solitary life too
(:
Thursday, June 18, 2009
random
"i also learned that there is no sense in feeling empathy for those who do not treasure what has been presented to them until they lost it; the day will come when they finally feel the impact of their loss."
-Satanic Bible
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
insomnia
I had this bizzare dream early this morning before i entirely got out of bed..
I was in this room, its a single room ( kinda resembles the one in hall). The room was lit by a dim light and everything was blurry. It was definitely not my birthday. Everyone swarmed in ( and i mean some random plp, who are supposedly my friends), handling me gifts and thank you notes. The weirdest part was that some of them came in groups and passed me broken bars of chocolates. Its like they are damn kiam, they bought the cadbury bar chocolate and broke it in to different pieces and presented to me as "individual" giftS. arseholes.
appalled by their frugality, i woke up feeling peevish about the dream.
Whats it suppose to mean?
Inspired by the "nightmare" ( ok not really inspired), i plugged in my headphones to work and listened to a couple of songs that i felt that i can relate to.
古巨基 - 忘了时间的钟
还有没有如果
还有没有结果
你不要再害我还有什么没说
还有什么没做
脑袋一片空我的潇洒告诉我 hey men! let her go我的心却哦你曾经多爱我你还记得否为什么同一张口才说爱我又说要离开我我像忘了时间的钟一分一秒的过却不知到越走错越多忘了时间的钟每个人都在笑我忘了时间的钟滴滴答答不休转啊转啊转啊别管我忘了时间的钟好难过呜爱到最后剩什么谁告诉我走的太快你说不关心你感受走的太慢你又说赶不上潮流爱到最后剩什么你说Jason Mraz - Beautiful Mess
You’ve got the best of both worlds
You’re the kind of girl who can take down a man,
And lift him back up again
You are strong but you’re needy,
Humble but you’re greedy
Based on your body language,
your shouted cursive I’ve been reading
You’re style is quite selective,
though your mind is rather reckless
Well I guess it just suggests
that this is just what happiness is
Hey, what a beautiful mess this is
It’s like picking up trash in dresses
Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write
Kind of turn themselves into knives
And don't mind my nerve you can call it fiction
‘Cause I like being submerged in your contradictions dear
‘Cause here we are, here we are
Although you were biased I love your advice
Your comebacks they’re quick
And probably have to do with your insecurities
There’s no shame in being crazy,
Depending on how you take these
Words that paraphrasing this relationship we’re staging
And it’s a beautiful mess, yes it is
It’s like, we are picking up trash in dresses
Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you say
Kind of turn themselves into blades
And the kind and courteous is a life I’ve heard
But it’s nice to say that we played in the dirt
Cause here, here we are, Here we are
Cake - I Will SurviveAt first I was afraid
I was petrified
I kept thinking I could never live without you
By my side
But then I spent so many nights
Just thinking how you've done me wrong
I grew strong
I learned how to get along
And so you're back
From outer space
I just walked in to find you
Here with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed my fucking lock
I would have made you leave your key
If I had known for just one second
You'd be back to bother me
Oh now go,
Walk out the door
Just turn around
Now, you're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one
Who tried to break me with desire?
Did you think I'd crumble?
Did you think I'd lay down and die?
Oh not I,
I will survive
Yeah
As Long as I know how to love,
I know I'll be alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
I will survive,
I will survive
Yeah, yeah
It took all the strength I had
Just not to fall apart
I'm trying hard to mend the pieces
Of my broken heart
And I spent oh so many nights
Just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry,
But now I hold my head up high
And you see me
With somebody new
I'm not that stupid little person
Still in love with you
And so you thought you'd just drop by
And you expect me to be free
But now I'm saving all my lovin'
For someone who's lovin' me
Oh now go,
Walk out the door
Just turn around
Now, you're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one
Who tried to break me with desire?
Did you think I'd crumble?
Did you think I'd lay down and die?
Oh not I,
I will survive
Yeah
As long as I know how to love,
I know I'll be alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
I will survive,
I will survive
oh yes. i listen all 3 "Because of You" this morning :)
"I kissed her lips I taste your mouth" - Katy Perry
